I am not sure what is going on, but lately, I feel like I am trapped. I hurry to get out of work and pick my baby up and go home but there are limited things I can do with her....I can play with her or take her in a stroller and walk around the neighborhood. That is becoming every day routine, but I wish I could go take a yoga class, go riding a bike or meeting friend's for a happy hour. A lot of things are so limited and I know why, but I am having a hard time adjusting from care-free life to this. I feel awful to feel this way because having a baby was my dream.
I cannot go far away too long because I need to pump. It's a lovely night and will be nice to hang out on a deck, but I cannot enjoy my favorite drink wine because it goes through breast milk. I need to go to bed early because I have to get up at 4:00 am to pump. Pumping....pumping....pumping... It crosses my mind what if I stop pumping now? I've done this for 3 months and she is darn healthy, so she will do ok with formula only. Will I regret if I go ahead and stop it now for my own selfish reason?!
I think I am still going through a baby blue this week :( :( :(
Baby
She cracks me up with her latest laughing / talking voice!! I don't know where she learned, but she laughs with high voice and she sounds like a Gremlin!! Is she trying to speak to us? Is this a normal milestone?? It's just fascinating what she is doing because we didn't teach her that!
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